blondiesBEARista

What to do on a rainy day? Exercise and it alleviates steps!!!! I got 30 minutes in this morning! Going to work at getting back into shape! I have been eating to live lately rather than living to eat! Makes a big difference!!!!

You can se my babies tushy as he was laying in the garage waiting for me to finish my 30 minute work out!

See my hubby’s pride and joy?? Years ago he had to get rid of his truck and that was before my time and he had always been sad about it, so we bought this baby for him! He loved it so much he would not drive it in the rain!!!! I would chuckle and say “But honey it is a TRUCK!” we got a great laugh out of it but he still would not drive his baby in the rain! Too Funny!

Now off to drink lots of water! Have a splendid day!

Hugz Blondie and Boo Bear

It is with heart felt sadness that yesterday my husband passed away having lost his long time off and on fight to Hairy Cell Leukemia. The last resort treatment was not working and hubby was just so tired and wanted to just go home! With the help of Hospice he was able to die with dignity in his own home near Bear and Me and his Son.

Hospice was kind of scary for both of us because hubby felt the hospital was a security blanket but at the same time he wanted to be home. It was scary for me because I was the one taking care of him under the guidance of the Hospice staff. Plus to watch your loved one in discomfort is so scary but with the hospice and my care it is made sure he isn’t in any pain!

I was sort of prepared in the grieving process because we knew that this cancer would eventually get him. It still does not minimize my feelings of loss and sadness. I will be going through the entire grieving process I am sure!

Since Bear had to be in our room some of the time when equipment was being delivered and Hospice staff were here, Bear wasn’t able to get in his usual walks etc. He knew that daddy was sick, he was so good and very quiet around his papa and would lay by his bed to be near him!

Even though I was terrified of watching the death process occur, I wanted to step up to the plate for my husband and give him the greatest gift of me being there for him in his ultimate time of need!

Today Bear and I are resting and grieving and we were able to go out and get our walk in! Bear gets all of my attention now since he is my house buddy!

It is so hard when you have been with someone a long time and then all of a sudden they are gone! A time of adjustments and healing to begin.

Blondie and Boo Bear